As I have said before, I don’t think I am pregnant. However, I will still be taking a pregnancy test to be certain (unless my period beats me to the punch). Waiting to take the test kind of feels like buying a lottery ticket: you don’t believe that you’ll win but there is a tiny hope there anyway. In the time between buying the ticket and the numbers being drawn, you dreamily imagine what it would be like to win, what you would do with the winnings, how your life would change.
That’s how I feel right now. I dreamily imagine what it would be like to see double lines on the pregnancy test, what my pregnancy would be like, welcoming a child into our little family.
It’s a lovely dream!
I have changed my tactic in regard to the ovulation tests. Instead of doing it with my first pee of the day, I’m waiting until I get home from work in the evening. The test I took last night had a more typical result than my morning-pee tests have been giving me.